Filmmaker - Musician - Photographer

Do great minds really think alike?

I've read a couple of Woody Allen interviews and I really identify with him on his emotions after he finishes a project.  Read the following exert from the interview:

"If the reviews were good, it never changed my life for the better; and if the reviews were bad, it never changed my life for the worse" - and the latter, well, [Woody] is more often than not unhappy with a film once he has finished it, and watching it again just brings down his mood. He envies easier personality types, those of his peers who can finish a film and go to a big party on opening night and at least give a good impression of enjoying themselves. But Allen does not get pleasure from it. "I just work from film to film and I'm almost burning on a low flame of depression. You know? It's not the kind of depression that sends you to use drugs or medicine. But, you know, I don't really care if people don't like a film of mine very much, and I don't really get much pleasure if the film is successful."

I get the exact same way.  I just finished my newest album/ep (whatever), "Today is the Last Today" and I'm miserable for two reasons:

1) How can I enjoy any sense of accomplishment when I don't feel like I've accomplished anything.  I mean, with the release of this project, I'm back to square one.

2) How can I feel good about what I've done when no matter what there will ALWAYS be something out there better than anything I could ever do?

In spite of this, I love making music more than anything else in the world.  How crazy is that?

Quincy Ledbetter1 Comment