i'm reminded of an old Donny Hathaway song....
Remember in the movie "New Jack City" when Pookie (Chris Rock's character) went through withdraw as they tried to get him off of drugs? I'm kind of going through and emotional withdrawl. I'm doing a good job of not showing it, but recently forces beyond my control are making it pretty tough to keep my composure.
Its at a point now where I'm having to struggle with believing women when they say they find me attractive or when they express a special interest in me. I think my distrust is going to make it hard for me to be myself and that can only hurt me in the long run.
I'm tryin' to force myself into a withdrawl of my withdrawl.
In either case...my heart hurts.